Trying not to fall down the deep dark hole.

So Saturday June 27th was my due date. I'm trying not to think about it, dwell on it, freak out about it etc. but it keeps entering my mind. DH is working but he is on nights so hopefully we will be doing something fun to keep my mind off of it. When I think about it I feel like I might vomit. I was really hoping to be trying again or pregnant by the time this day came around but here I am in limbo. To top it all off I have AF real bad thanks to provera which I started taking in hopes that we were going to be starting injectables right away (before the genetics came back funky).