More alone time.

So tonight DH officially starts his new shift work job and lucky me he is starting on nights. So I will be alone for the next 2 nights. This new job is a blessing. It's more secure than his last and it also will give us an awesome benefit package starting November 1st. The only down side is that it is 4 on 4 off and we will have much less time together and I will be alone a lot more often (because I work M-F). I don't mind being alone, I lived alone (in a different country no less) for 4 years. I actually enjoy "me" time but it also means more time to sit and obsess over my infertility and lost babies. I'll just need to keep busy and once the weather warms up consistently I can spend lots of time outside working in my gardens (and my tan). I thank God that I have my best friends wedding coming up in 2 weeks because that has kept me fairly preoccupied and once that's over it is just 1 week until my appointment. I keep running through the possible scenarios in my head. What news will Dr.L give me? What if they found nothing? When will get to TTC again? What will the new plan consist of? So many questions and no answers until June 15th.